Only fools fall in love

Only fools fall in love?
I guess i'm a fool...being with master it is hard to not fall in love I guess he just makes you want to fall.I want to see him so bad right now I want to just hop on the train and visit him BUT his roomate might not be so happy to see me or see master with me...Me and master have been master and slave for about 3 months but dating for 2 months..Master never really asked me out but I consider christmas day our offical start of dating but master was in china i guess you could argue that we dated the day AFTER christmas
Even though only fools fall in love my master has some great advice on Relationships,Love and consentual slavery!


Master: let me define my full definition of love
Master: 1. I don't classify loves in romantic/family/friendhsip
Master: 2. I think that someone can exist in all three of those fields
Master: 3. when I ask you, as to whether you love master or not, it is love wholly or not, not love this way or that
Master: but love as a pure pure form, untainted and untwisted to "define" relationships
Master: 4. Love is an action, more than a feeling. Love brings many emotions, but it is not an emotion. "Feeling Loved" is an emotion however.
Master: 5. Love is to... invest into something else purely for its spiritual nurturing
Master: This is the love that I want slave to continually to pursue
Master: in its purest form
Master: This love is what extends outside and beyond then realms of necessary definition
Master: and is the love I want my slave to have for me
Master: It prevents definitions, and thus, limits on mediums of expression


Master: and here's my understanding on why relationships fail or break
Master: its when these "intended" channels of expression of love break down
Master: when say, a romantic relationship fails
Master: its usually because something was preventing the ways of love communiction
Master: distance fails because distance means less intimacy, and less flower giving, less dates and all that
Master: which brings the relationship to a level below true and complete love, but a need/wants bargain and exchange
Master: but that conscious effort is not to "keep them around" but to "invest in their spiritual nurturing"
Master: which basically means, invest into their spirit, to make them happier
Master: to make them laugh, worry less, and look forward to life


Master: My definition of consensual slavery
Master: slavery still nontheless, with truly few to no limits
Master: 1. consensual slavery is based on love.
2. the person who desires to be the slave, naturally sees the position of being a slave more better at spitual investment into another. A constant commitment to spiritually invest in someone else.
Master: 3. And that this love is so strong that they're spiritual investment and enthusiasm spreads to a level so strong that it overwhelms them, and thus, self sacrifice for love is their greatest source of happiness
Master: 4 - Rest. These are things like the kinkier aspects of slavery, which are much less love related, but simply the preferred mediums of expression, such as frequent sexual intimacy, superior level of trust and individual character to the relationship, and so on forth



Pretty deep right? this was on christmas day..I felt like he gave me the best christmas gift ever he gave me happiness and understanding I understood why relationships break and his love for me and what concetual slavery ment in his deffintion..I want a pure form of love doesnt it sound beautiful? the problem with me and master is thaat I fear that my simpleness and his complexness is not a good contrast :o I see the world as A+B=AB simple and logical but master sees the world in such a diffrent contrasting way so complex that sometimes I fear that my simple thoughts come off as stupidness or idiotic
but masters complexness is a nice contrast for me sometimes..sometimes it just sucks like we had a 30 min game of tic tac toe (really!) I put so much energy and thought into the game trying to outsmart master but after the game master told me to try harder and stop thinking so simple *Sighs* I put a lot of energy into that game I have NO plans to play tick tac toe with him for a long time when I play again i WILL beat him


Ive been thinking about my sexuality a lot I really want to define it
Guy+girl=<3
Girl+girl=<3 (Girl on girl is ok and maybe I would kiss a few girls have sex take a drink or two off their chest )
Guy+Guy= *giggles* (I dont get horny seeing guy on guy I think its cute :) and I start to giggle)
Mmmm according to my girl guy chart im bi :O oh no but actually I dont want to consider myself bi untill I kiss a girl and like it lol so I guess i'll never be bi because master would say....nononono to kissing girls ^_^

Doesnt this sound like the best porno ever...
Girl with DD boobs having sex with another girl with DD boobs?
Sounds like lots of squirting and boobies and nipples and moaning! Id tottally buy that ;) oh wait im staring in the movie!



There is a lot of crap happening in my life now which is fine I guess most of the drama has ended but erick (my ex since forever) is trying to get back with me NOT because he misses me NOT because he loves me but because he hates asians so I cant be with a asian boy or have a asian master WTF XD like really who hates asians? thats like hating 10 billion people lol erick is annoying but its ok he keeps me entertained not that I need enetertainment bc master is like so fucking awesome XD

Master wants me to loose weight and give a report every two weeks :o but im so happy I want to give a mini report today~~

My measurments
Boobs:36
Waist: 34
Hips: 38

As of today 2/19/11
Boobs: 36
waist: 33.3
hips: 37.5

Wooo!~ almost one whole inch taken off in one week :D horrayyy masters diet consists of lots of fruits and vegies and water Ive been following it strictly even today on my junk food day i only had -ONE- small slice of pie o_o really? I wasted my junk food day XD



today Master wanted me to webcam and masturbate on cum but I wasnt horny wall I was a little but I couldnt get horny because I was worried about some anatomy stuff..I cant go on webcam again until master helps me with anatomy! I rather have my master help me with anatomy then have my other friend help me with Anatomy..more sensual :)
I love love love quotes..but I legitly found a quote that fit me perfectly and will now be my default info on my pages like collarme and such...

I'm sweet,but deadly.I'm not a mean girl,but I can hold my own.I've got the looks that kill,but a touch that soothes.I'm your best dream,but your worst nightmare,Worst nightmare you strangely want to be reoccuring I crave passion.I live for the moment.I love with all my heart.I'm everything you ever wanted and everything you will never have.