Someone said me and master are compatible as a couple
I've never really thought about this
I know as a bdsm relationship our likes and dislikes similar thankfully !~
But strictly as a couple the dynamic is weird lol
I'm very cute, giggly bubbly, nonsensical!~ and very extreme !
If I'm worried ill bite all my nails
If I'm sad ill cry and do nothingness
Master is very serious about everything
He has little tendency to wake up too late
but the best master ! I don't really see him too much boyfriend he's like my best friend my master my oppa...
In a way I think I remind master to breathe relax and love life
Especially loving through me!
Love life have your cock sucked at all times!
I think i soften his serious exteriors
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Master balances me out...
Master
Oppa
My everything
Saturday, January 26, 2013
Wednesday, January 23, 2013
Cums
I am working out everyday, I feel more and more like a fuckmeat everyday!
I work hard to obey my master and do my best :) but Something is missing..
For a while I was like mm maybe I'm eating too much, maybe i'm not exercising enough..maybe blah blah but I get it
I can't be a fuckmeat untill I appreciate and understand my body!
Which is just going to take me honestly loosing my sense of shame and just going out and buying a vibe, and playing with myself!
To the point here I'm addicted to cumming, I crave it..It's my release, my escape it becomes me?
Just like working out..I love to workout it's my release, I can escape and it's just something I automatically do..and when I don't do it I feel ODD..
That same sense of need is what I need to use in my approach to cumming, because this is a part of my body I want to give to my master!
If It's not something that I love something that I crave...then 1 year or 2 years without cumming will be hard but it won't quite be unbearable..it won't feel like he really really really owns me because I don't have that deep attachment that other girls have to cumming..
I'm going to buy the vibrator tomorrow and hopefully it will come quickly!
I'm even going to plan out when I can use my vibe ;) how many times a day
I hope to slowly increase my cums as I get more addicted!
I also would like to get a nipple milker!
Or nipple sucker, so I use that part of my body..
I work hard to obey my master and do my best :) but Something is missing..
For a while I was like mm maybe I'm eating too much, maybe i'm not exercising enough..maybe blah blah but I get it
I can't be a fuckmeat untill I appreciate and understand my body!
Which is just going to take me honestly loosing my sense of shame and just going out and buying a vibe, and playing with myself!
To the point here I'm addicted to cumming, I crave it..It's my release, my escape it becomes me?
Just like working out..I love to workout it's my release, I can escape and it's just something I automatically do..and when I don't do it I feel ODD..
That same sense of need is what I need to use in my approach to cumming, because this is a part of my body I want to give to my master!
If It's not something that I love something that I crave...then 1 year or 2 years without cumming will be hard but it won't quite be unbearable..it won't feel like he really really really owns me because I don't have that deep attachment that other girls have to cumming..
I'm going to buy the vibrator tomorrow and hopefully it will come quickly!
I'm even going to plan out when I can use my vibe ;) how many times a day
I hope to slowly increase my cums as I get more addicted!
I also would like to get a nipple milker!
Or nipple sucker, so I use that part of my body..
Wednesday, January 16, 2013
Up/downs
I'm working out 2 hours a day now, thats 2 hours of cardio.
It's tiring, exhusting and I burn 800-900+ calories a day!
I'm also eating a vegan lifestyle, and havent ate meat in a bit!~
I've had vegitarian meat loaf (AMAZING)
many types of vegtables soups (Amazingzz)
Even a vegan patty!~
But mostly lots of salads, I have not ate pasta, macaroni, breads, pizza, burgers, fries ETC.
And I expect to see results that show my new healthy lifestyle..Ive lost 10lbs but I can't eat meat till I lose 10 more..
It feels like forever..I've given up on the idea that I'll be able to eat meat on monday, I think it wont be untill maybe next week..so 2 more weeks like this.so It will be about 1 month of no meat options..
I feel like I'm lacking emotional support from maser, he is eager for entertainment..but I keep feeling like I need emotional support even with college and craziness..I kinda feel like i'm going through it alone..like hes not a apart of my life
so I do call him more often to sorta feel that connection, but I don't really feel anything..to me it's ust like i'm an obsticle.....when i tell him about my day he responds very minimally because hes stressed even on days when no apps are due I just wish I could feel the same emotional support as I used to feel..and I think not having that emotional support is tearing me up inside..
I just feel alone, just feels a pit pointless deep inside, a bit endless...
like I keep telling myself tomorrow..tomarrow..next week next week
it's kinda like my diet I'm just waiting for results, and it feels slow..and I wonder if I should quit..and sometimes I have huge bursts of YEAHH I CAN DO THIS!
the same is how I feel with my current relationship with my master, I love him!
But hes soo busy, I feel so much alone so less connected to him and I tell myself YEAHH I can do this!! Keep working Master is just XYZ and just has to do XYZ
but then theirs also those times when I Just want to quit cry and froget about everything...
It's tiring, exhusting and I burn 800-900+ calories a day!
I'm also eating a vegan lifestyle, and havent ate meat in a bit!~
I've had vegitarian meat loaf (AMAZING)
many types of vegtables soups (Amazingzz)
Even a vegan patty!~
But mostly lots of salads, I have not ate pasta, macaroni, breads, pizza, burgers, fries ETC.
And I expect to see results that show my new healthy lifestyle..Ive lost 10lbs but I can't eat meat till I lose 10 more..
It feels like forever..I've given up on the idea that I'll be able to eat meat on monday, I think it wont be untill maybe next week..so 2 more weeks like this.so It will be about 1 month of no meat options..
I feel like I'm lacking emotional support from maser, he is eager for entertainment..but I keep feeling like I need emotional support even with college and craziness..I kinda feel like i'm going through it alone..like hes not a apart of my life
so I do call him more often to sorta feel that connection, but I don't really feel anything..to me it's ust like i'm an obsticle.....when i tell him about my day he responds very minimally because hes stressed even on days when no apps are due I just wish I could feel the same emotional support as I used to feel..and I think not having that emotional support is tearing me up inside..
I just feel alone, just feels a pit pointless deep inside, a bit endless...
like I keep telling myself tomorrow..tomarrow..next week next week
it's kinda like my diet I'm just waiting for results, and it feels slow..and I wonder if I should quit..and sometimes I have huge bursts of YEAHH I CAN DO THIS!
the same is how I feel with my current relationship with my master, I love him!
But hes soo busy, I feel so much alone so less connected to him and I tell myself YEAHH I can do this!! Keep working Master is just XYZ and just has to do XYZ
but then theirs also those times when I Just want to quit cry and froget about everything...
Tuesday, January 8, 2013
New Kittyz
I'm trying my best to be a good fuckmeat, so far I am fulfilling everything master wishes of me and soon i will wear a dog chain necklace around my neck that proudly says Kitty :)
It's a new year, and a new me (LOL where have you heard that before?)
I'm trying to embrace myself more as fuckmeat and less as Nicole/Kitty/Katie..
Fuckmeats World is what I should rename my blog to!~
I'm trying to enter a bikini competition for he summer :)
I will defiantly win! and the money i win maybe i can use it to pay for implants?
I'm really short on implant money, so what other way to get implants money then to get money for masters body. It's not my money, but masters money..and it's not my body it's masters body!~
but I still hope to do my best to get implants
My first implant time I hope to get DD, but my ultimate goal is in HHH or larger!~
I just want my body to be something that master is pleased with, even if it means 2hours a gym everyday or extra extra extra large boobies
i'm happy when master is happy
It's a new year, and a new me (LOL where have you heard that before?)
I'm trying to embrace myself more as fuckmeat and less as Nicole/Kitty/Katie..
Fuckmeats World is what I should rename my blog to!~
I'm trying to enter a bikini competition for he summer :)
I will defiantly win! and the money i win maybe i can use it to pay for implants?
I'm really short on implant money, so what other way to get implants money then to get money for masters body. It's not my money, but masters money..and it's not my body it's masters body!~
but I still hope to do my best to get implants
My first implant time I hope to get DD, but my ultimate goal is in HHH or larger!~
I just want my body to be something that master is pleased with, even if it means 2hours a gym everyday or extra extra extra large boobies
i'm happy when master is happy
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