My Submission

Submission is a gift.
As a submissive I place a lot of trust in my Master. I am honest, vulnerable and open up my mind and body for him to mold and use as he sees fit. My trust should not be taken lightly or abused. My trust shouldn’t be tested, nor should my vulnerability be abused.
I used to be a foolish slave. I submitted quickly to any Master whom I thought liked me. I got hurt time and time again. I was foolish to believe that someone who I barely knew could appreciate the gift of my full submission. In the past, I did not value myself; I just wanted to have a Master. I had no idea what I was looking for. Now I have a clear goal, and know exactly what I’m seeking.
BDSM has taught me many things about myself, and I now value myself more because of the experiences I’ve had. My view on submission is always changing. I’m currently defining, and redefining what submission is. I’m so happy that I have had many negative experiences. Those experiences have really helped me to develop as a better submissive. Below I will explain qualities that I look for when I’m considering submitting.
I submit to a Master who understands the importance of being a Master
He already knows that being a Master is a responsibility. He should understand that being a Master is not a joke, and carries a large responsibility.
I submit to a Master who does not demand my submission
He already knows that my submission is earned, and doesn’t expect me to immediately gift him with my submission. He should also know that submission does not happen immediately, and takes time for the trust to develop.
I submit to a Master who understands that submission is my gift to him
He sees my submission as something to be valued and treasured, something that has been earned and is not just a blind right.
I submit to a Master who understands why I believe submission is a gift
A Master who understands the reason why I consider my submission as gift understands that I value myself, and understands that I refuse to submit to every guy who has crossed my path, instead I will submit to one guy who has earned my submission.
I love the kink of having a chastity belt because a large part of having the belt is giving my Master full control over my sex. To me a chastity belt is a tangible sign of my commitment to submit completely to my Master. I want to proudly wear the tangible sign of my commitment.
Submission is exciting and romantic, and I wish to share my submission with a Master who values me, and treasures me as his special gift. I want to feel loved, valued, protected, guided. In return I’ll offer you my full and deepest submission to you.

The Test....7/25/11 old post

Master, after telling me that he wishes to feel super happy, the most happiest he can imagine.
He asked me," how would you feel if I fucked another girl right now, or say in 5 minutes"
This question coming from Mastr sounds strange, I was curious wondering why he would ask me this.I thought, did he have a girl he wanted to fuck, or did he want to test my emotions or maybe was unsure if I was ok with him fucking other girls. Master was intrested in finding out about how I felt regarding cuckquean, although we have talked about this subject often. I responded to Master telling him that the idea makes me wet, I thought it was pretty sexy how Master had girls waiting to duck him, and also while he was fucking them, he would think of me. Thinking of me while fucking a beautiful girl, I grew horny thinking about this. I Told myself, once Master starts fucking this girl, I will record my feeling. I know my feelings will play great. In my upcoming anaylsis of a limitless slave.Master went over the cuckquean rules, and I was able to add one more. My stomach was in knots, I was nervous,confused,sad and horny all in one confused knot. Master then said, " Kitty, I am gonna...." and he later replied "yup" when I asked him if he would fuck another girl. Thinking back, I think this was where his uncertinity begun. Unsure if he should lie to kitty or press on with vague details. Once Master said yup, he was bound to carry out that there was a girl coming

Strong

I used to think
I'm not strong enough
I don't have the body for it
I like pasta too much
But now 25 pounds into my weightloss goals, I understand that those were all lies. I was always strong enough, I've always had the body for it ! The only thing I was lacking was wanting it. Wanting to have the body of a fuckmeat the body of a whore, the body of a cuckquean the body that master wants me to have. I'm 60+ pounds away from that ideal, but 60 pounds doesn't seem too far away now. I had a food cheat meal last night, I did not enjoy it. My body felt like I was eating crap, and I felt sluggish even my favorite soda didn't feel reviving and fresh, just felt subpar. That just shows me that I have what it takes to be masters ideal. I'm getting a reward when I lose another 8lbd! I'll be at 170!~ bc it'll be total 33 pounds a number you might hear on a infomercial lol I lost 33 pounds with xyz lol. Master will buy my $40 of art supplies! I love art

I've been thinking a lot about fucking I' was numb every time master fucked me I guess you can say I don't know what it feels like to be fucked? I'm not a Virgin but I feel like one lol and I like that? Soon I will be locked in chastity! And won't be able to cum or be fucked and that makes me very horny, i feel Like It would be really sexy to numb my clit forever..always focusing on my master pleasure not my own..to me I like that! I actually fantasize a lot about my master locking me in chastity and only unlocking me to numb his(not my) puussy and tell me I have 5 minutes to cum while being numb! Maybe ill fun even though I'm numb! But I won't feel it! Then locked away again! Ahh time to go play to my fantasy :) I plan on cumming everyday who knows when my last
Cum will be!

Compatible

Someone said me and master are compatible as a couple
I've never really thought about this
I know as a bdsm relationship our likes and dislikes similar thankfully !~
But strictly as a couple the dynamic is weird lol
I'm very cute, giggly bubbly, nonsensical!~ and very extreme !
If I'm worried ill bite all my nails
If I'm sad ill cry and do nothingness
Master is very serious about everything
He has little tendency to wake up too late
but the best master ! I don't really see him too much boyfriend he's like my best friend my master my oppa...
In a way I think I remind master to breathe relax and love life
Especially loving through me!
Love life have your cock sucked at all times!
I think i soften his serious exteriors
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Master balances me out...
Master
Oppa
My everything

Cums

I am working out everyday, I feel more and more like a fuckmeat everyday!
I work hard to obey my master and do my best :) but Something is missing..
For a while I was like mm maybe I'm eating too much, maybe i'm not exercising enough..maybe blah blah but I get it
I can't be a fuckmeat untill I appreciate and understand my body!
Which is just going to take me honestly loosing my sense of shame and just going out and buying a vibe, and playing with myself!
To the point here I'm addicted to cumming, I crave it..It's my release, my escape it becomes me?
Just like working out..I love to workout it's my release, I can escape and it's just something I automatically do..and when I don't do it I feel ODD..
That same sense of need is what I need to use in my approach to cumming, because this is a part of my body I want to give to my master!
If It's not something that I love something that I crave...then 1 year or 2 years without cumming will be hard but it won't quite be unbearable..it won't feel like he really really really owns me because I don't have that deep attachment that other girls have to cumming..
I'm going to buy the vibrator tomorrow and hopefully it will come quickly!
I'm even going to plan out when I can use my vibe ;) how many times a day
I hope to slowly increase my cums as I get more addicted!
I also would like to get a nipple milker!
Or nipple sucker, so I use that part of my body..

Up/downs

I'm working out 2 hours a day now, thats 2 hours of cardio.
It's tiring, exhusting and I burn 800-900+ calories a day!
I'm also eating a vegan lifestyle, and havent ate meat in a bit!~
I've had vegitarian meat loaf (AMAZING)
many types of vegtables soups (Amazingzz)
Even a vegan patty!~
But mostly lots of salads, I have not ate pasta, macaroni, breads, pizza, burgers, fries ETC.
And I expect to see results that show my new healthy lifestyle..Ive lost 10lbs but I can't eat meat till I lose 10 more..
It feels like forever..I've given up on the idea that I'll be able to eat meat on monday, I think it wont be untill maybe next week..so 2 more weeks like this.so It will be about 1 month of no meat options..
I feel like I'm lacking emotional support from maser, he is eager for entertainment..but I keep feeling like I need emotional support even with college and craziness..I kinda feel like i'm going through it alone..like hes not a apart of my life
so I do call him more often to sorta feel that connection, but I don't really feel anything..to me it's ust like i'm an obsticle.....when i tell him about my day he responds  very minimally because hes stressed even on days when no apps are due I just wish I could feel the same emotional support as I used to feel..and I think not having that emotional support is tearing me up inside..
I just feel alone, just feels a pit pointless deep inside, a bit endless...
like I keep telling myself tomorrow..tomarrow..next week  next week
it's kinda like my diet I'm just waiting for results, and it feels slow..and I wonder if I should quit..and sometimes I have huge bursts of YEAHH I CAN DO THIS!
the same is how I feel with my current relationship with my master, I love him!
But hes soo busy, I feel so much alone so less connected to him and I tell myself YEAHH I can do this!! Keep working Master is just XYZ and just has to do XYZ
but then theirs also those times when I Just want to quit cry and froget about everything...

New Kittyz

I'm trying my best to be a good fuckmeat, so far I am fulfilling everything master wishes of me and soon i will wear a dog chain necklace around my neck that proudly says Kitty :)
It's a new year, and a new me (LOL where have you heard that before?)
I'm trying to embrace myself more as fuckmeat and less as Nicole/Kitty/Katie..
Fuckmeats World is what I should rename my blog to!~
I'm trying to enter a bikini competition for he summer :)
I will defiantly win! and the money i win maybe i can use it to pay for implants?
I'm really short on implant money, so what other way to get implants money then to get money for masters body. It's not my money, but masters money..and it's not my body it's masters body!~
but I still hope to do my best to get implants
My first implant time I hope to get DD, but my ultimate goal is in HHH or larger!~
I just want my body to be something that master is pleased with, even if it means 2hours a gym everyday or extra extra extra large boobies
i'm happy when master is happy