*SIGHS*
Master is so unique..
I am so frustrated, so sad, so mad, so confused
I just wanted to talk to my master about my feelings about a new issue that has come up about a car. Then As soon as I start to explain myself he says im going to rest >_>
wooow...
thats great I felt like he did not even care about my feeligns
instantly I felt ashamed, how could I have just written about being his fucktoy if he could so easily not care about me emotionally
fuck it I am not writing shit for him, I put so much energy into the writing, I edited and reedited and then thrased and restarted with many edits and even with the internal dialouge! but fuck that
this is shit, I regret writing
I regret telling him how I feel
just yesterday he got mad because I never tell him stuff
and this is EXCACTLY why I never do I'm scared hes going to brush it off.
I'm not going to tell him my emotions next time, I won't get hurt that way.
I have many regrets now..=/
