Twistedz

I am so humiliated
I just want someone to hug me and tell me its ok..
I wish I had a boyfriend :/
I spent 2days of my life with webdesign things..
I thought I had skill!
I worked slow but it looked nice
But now when I finished the site it looked average
Did I really spend so much time
To make shit?
I spent so much time..skipped so many meals...
But I have nothing to show again..
I really wanted to proudly show master!
And master will smile and honnestly tell me its not garbage..
Master tells me a lot of the things I like or I write is garbage..
I don't know why I expected this to be diffrent
Its like my 4.0 gpa I achieved with all B's
Why am I so average :/
I prepared a huge surprise for master 2 days ago!
it took me a while but it was perfect!
So much retakes and retrys
My voice hurt so much from redoing..
Master said he would be home soon he said this at 10pm
I waited till 3:30am for master..
Worried, excited and anxious..
But at 3:30Am when I went to sleep I felt alone, confused and sad
BUT I was hopeful that master prob went to a strip club :) and it ends at 4:30am
The next day I found out master actually was home the whole time
But frogot about me
As soon as I heard I was pissed and sad and dissapointed
I worked so hard on this for him..
I just deleated everything I made -_-
If he can't remember kitty was waiting for him he shouldn't get the surprice
That surpice belongs to someone who actually cares
If I was a hot bimbo waiting for him at home he wouldn't have frogot!
If I was anyone...but kitty he would have rememberd
I told master its cool I understand etc.
And the pictures helped a lot
But, it will still take some time...
In the meantime I guess ill figure out what to do with my webdesign :/