Lee Seung

Waiting in my black corset, dressed to kill with makeup on and my books on my lap. I anxiously counted down forty mins, but then forty mins turned to one hour, and finally that one hour turned to tomarrow. My parents were not home tonight, they went away for the weekend. Home alone, Master had plans to help me study for, but I had plans to distract master from studying. Now that I think about it, I guess dressing up is foolish, since Master does not view me in the sexuall way. Master has a friend named Roxx, Rox wanted to go to a strip club. Master messaged me, he was like " Ughh, Roxx wants to go a strip club." I guess he was informing me or testing how I felt about that. I probably should have told him what I prepared, but he would be more sexually excited with strippers. Guys say, girls are complicated, but I think guys are the complicated one in the relationship. Of course I am probably contridicting myself, since I dressed up for Master, and never even told him. I guess, I like to surprice him, I know, I know I need to stop with the surprices. Master never sees me dress up sexy, or wear makeup I just thought I could do that for him tonight. No big deal though, because I can dress up anytime, I guess, at the end of the day, I just wanted to make sure Master was happy tonight. Even If I am not included in his plans for tonight, atleast he had fun? I always ponder how to accuretly describe me and Masters relationship, sometimes I want to describe it by comparison to foods, other times drinks, and on the rare occasions inanimate objects. In my head, It feels like Master is that tough cool guy, and I am that cute girl trying to crack his tough exterior! Yesterday, I learned something personal about master, I was really surpriced to hear it. I am not quite sure why he decided to tell me, he could have easily made his point without the story. I was so touched when he told me the story, did he really care about me this much to tell me a story so personal? My touched feelings were soon erased, Master tried to say what my life is like. I wonder if I told him what my life is like if he would listen? To him my life is like, sprinkles on vanilla icescream, just an after thought. Vanilla icescream honestly tastes really good, people add the sprinkles just to make something so plain look beautifull. I think vanilla icescream is beautifull without the need for sprinkles, or nuts I like the simplistic beauty that the vanilla icescream brings. Master and I will have known each other for almost a year soon. In a year have I learned a lot about Master, or have I wasted the year? I wonder which I would be able to confidently say, I just know that in one year Master has changed. Did he change because of me, lol just joking I know Master would never change over a girl. Master said before this relationship he was arrogant, and always hurt the girls closest to him, but what changed is now he will appologize for hurting me. I never expect an appology when Master hurts me, only because the pain never lasts too long. An appology from Master is like a band-aide, a regular brown band-aide. But, " I love you Kitty, don't be mad" is like a hello kitty band-aide. Am I such a simple girl, pictures and I love you makes me feel better. Master has changed to adapt to this relationship, I need to change also, before Master decides he does not want me. I need to work hard, work hard to be more serious, speak with less smilies and just improve general knowlodge. I know Master is training me to be a bimbo, but I think Master wants a super smart girl. I feel bad when I fail, I want to become better for Master.
I have started a new subbing project, yeah I sub music videos, a job made for lame people. I usually sub songs, that I can relate to, does that mean the song I am subbing right now I can relate to? The song I am subbing, it is a bit sad, but its such a beautiful ballad! Even Master can classify this song as "real music." It is a old song, made by an old singer but so good <3. Nobody subs songs made by old singers, how sad! After I finish subbing that song, I am going to subb other songs that I want Master to sing in october ^_^. Master may have ditched my last night, but its cool because I still studied. I studied while chatting to new people, what a intresting way to study. I met this asian boy he lives in New york, ehh I dont think he really likes me. He thinks I am too excited, too much coffee. But I dont drink coffee I said! The poor asian boy did not believe me =/, do you REALLY need coffee to become energised? I am just naturally happy, naturally full of energy and naturally this cute ;) haha. For the most part, meeting people was mega fail last night but *shrugs* not everyone is going to want to be my friend. Those lucky few who do wont regret it!~ Master he is so weird, he said that he does not think that people online can be sincere and real. But, he still decided to take a chance, and he took a chance replying back to my message. My message was pretty stupid, kinda carefree eh. I am happy he replied to me, and even happier to show you the best email I ever got EVER. Well, MM.... the email is -almost- as good as the pictures master sends. OMG, he sent the cutuest picture ever he was smiling with a little pose <3 ahhh. This email, is maybe the email that contains Masters most personal emotions, at the time I was really, really hurt. But, now when I read this email I don't care? It makes me wonder, why did I even care? It was not even a big deal but here is my favoriate part of the email. The part I read over and over when I "hate Master"

I met you soon after and I really liked you, I just didn't want to scare you away, because you might have thought that I was just going to let you be a mistress or an affair of sorts, when I really wanted you to be that center person of priority.I trust you Katie. I trust you very much. I feel that I can find mutual happiness with you. I will make up for it. You can choose, to be done with all the assignments that I have given (and not yet completed), or for me to buy you a gift.

hehe Cute right!~, Master liked me he really did like me ^_^. Master never says I love you Katie, and I guess its fair since I never say I love you Adam. But, in this part of the email it shows he loves katie!~ hehehehehehe ^_^. I don't know why I still get happy and giggly when I think about Master loving kitty and kattie. I need to grow up right? I think for me, the hardest part being with Master will be growing up to be more mature, the mature kind of person that doesn't giggle when he says " I love you Katie." The mature girl who doesn't send emails when she is bored and entertain Master with creepy,cute things *cough* chowmein song. I know Master likes this cute things at the momment, but soon, really soon I know he will tell me to stop. I hope he doesn't tell me to stop, I have so much more ideas, I look forward to Finals, and Midterms, and the first day of school.. I know last finals I didnt send anything ~_~ I was too busy failing all my classes lol

Math Master

Aghh Today has been a rollercoster ride for me and my master ~_~
starting with my master screaming at me like BLAHHHHHHH
and ending with him asleep on skype dreaming of boobies :)
Master agreed that he was being harsh about the whole china thing..
which is true but *Sighs* I wonder..if I did not have a master would I have gone to china with him?
would I be willing to risk EVERYTHING just to see what it could be like?
risk my life just to see what it could be like..I wonder
I am the type of girl that believes everyone and will be the first to be tricked
I am also the type to accept a wide RANGE of baggages..
I don't have many normal friends online and in real life..
Online well the sanity of my friends I would question
in real life my friends are ALMOST sane :o
but me..I think I am 100% sane?
I just perfer having intresting friends?
I can have a friend who likes onew
ORR
I could have a friend who hates onew, is a crossdressing vampire that has a mob and will kill me if i piss her off.
MM....I think life with a vampire mob friend is a bit more spicy ;)
that being said I would never invite that friend to my wedding too dramatic..
actually the only friend I would concider invinting to my wedding is actually..mmm Julia a crossdresser and that is concidering she looks passable..
But the problem with Julia is she is 6 foot, fat guy with strong distinctive male atributes... even with makeup she looks a bit..BLAH but whatever if she looks passable she can come :)
I decided I wanted to not be kitty for today I just wanted to be normal..but I kept talking as kitty ~_~ I can't NOT be kitty..Kitty has become a part of myself being anything but kitty to master just doesn't feel right it just feels wrong..
thats why today I realized..Being kitty sucks but being kitty..is the only thing I know how to do for master..If master woke up and said he doesnt want a bdsm relationship just normal I wouldnt be able to accept for a long time lol I just want to be kitty..I just want to be HIS kitty..of course my blog atm is maybe biased since im blogging and watching master sleep beautifully <3
in his sleep he is smiling..he smiled just for a quick second! I think for that quick second..he thought about me :)
Today I finally admitted to master that I have been studying for standard testing
BUT out of the 25 math questions pratice.the highest I can score is 5 right XD ugh..I dont understand the problems It just hurts? the book explains it but the book makes no sense using big words I dont understand and then when i google I get bigger words and bigger concepts i never understood *Sighs*
I am not stupid..I am just not as smart as master ;)
master has decided to do a study plan 3hrs a day studying with him..untill summer ends soo mmm a month and a few dayss? I say summer ends september 1st..Master has a long way to go...I don't think he knows how long he has to go XD if he knew..I think he would give uo lol
I want to give up also but nonono No giving upz...Master is so great investing time into me :) it is a risky investment so I need to work hard to make sure that he knows he made the right choice!~
but just studying 3 math problems with him my head hurts I MISS MY CALCULATOR master said MARI JANE YOKO belongs in the garbage =[
Mari jane yoko has the best spot in my room :) I put her next to the icescream piggybank yuji bought for me <3 the icescream piggy bank was one dollar..BUT the PRICE of items dont matter to me but rather the intention..and his intention was.. I LOVE YOU KATIE <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 AHHH...

Master has been looking at a pet tag for me..if master sent me a gift in the summer time it's more safe ^_^ since kitty is always home 24/7!~ I wonder if the pet tag would be cute....In my short black minidress with my pet tag ;) haahah cute <3 I like my necklace now its soo beautiful :) but I know anything master gets it will be cute..well not really master doesnt know cute -_- *cough*
Master told me today that my friend that i think is the prettiest most luckiest most hottest girl EVER is just ughh shes ok..
I was so worried..compared to this friend..I am a 2..xD just really blahh
but master called this girl average I don't even want to hear my rating =/
I wanted to change the subject to onew! (yeah first thing on my mind)
and he was like NO! WE CANT CHANGE IT TO ONEW! if you talk about onew ONE MORE TIME i WILL hang up..
At that momment I just felt he is willing to stop over onew..
he hurt me..
and my voice showed it..=/
I think he felt bad..
he was like "Kitty" *long dramatic puse*
and then "Katie" *longer dramatic pause*
and then "Kittie" *even longer dramatic pause*
^+^ I just laughed Master hurts me all the time I can bounce back quite easily!~
and he agreed to talk about onew but I shot him down ^_^ hehehe
we talked about our future together..I dont know why I like to think about the future.. so here is me and masters future :o

Location to live=CALIFORNIA
House insurance=BEST WE CAN GET FOR Earthquakes!~
House=Master picks (no hk pool)
Children Names= NO bible names,onew name, korean names but we can both pick :)
Wedding= Not what me and joppi planned X[ blahh
AHAHA :O jkjk anything goes I think <3 as long as I am with him I am ok..well MAYBE ill be ok..I deff wont live anywhere cold -_- nonono I want to show boobies


Master is the type of guy that loves me so much but shows it in the strangest ways..
the times where I think about his strange ways to show it is mostly when he sleeps or when he sends pictures..I just get this mushy feeling ^_O DOES THAT MEAN WHEN I SEE HIM IN REAL LIFE IM GOING TO LIKE WORSHIP HIM???!!!??
ahh..serving master will be so simple I think..if I feel this way over skype+pictures then real will be soo extremly WOAH just drop to my knees suck his cock kinda woah lol

Master to show he loves me..he screamed at me about going to china..
he screamed because he doesnt want anyone to hurt our relationship
and when I told him..he was scared and confused...
He really wasnt trying to be a asshole
and then the second time he showed love to me today :)
was when he let me be katie today just for today..he loved me enough to understand that for some reason I needed to feel like katie..Actually for a while I havent felt like anything..Just felt like a walking talking robot untill master comes online <3 my parents..they want me to be a robot..new parenting skills book ;) lol crazy..
and third time he showed love!~
When he became a crazy math teacher..his teaching style..it works but its just like UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH KILLL MEEEEEEEEEEEEEE PLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!
LOL mainly because I dont have a calculator =o how will I do long devision?? what about my exponents?? what about fractions??? noooooooo I WANT MY CALCULATOR =[
LOL and apart from not having a calculator its generally pretty hard concepts he is trying to install in my head concepts that he says he can do in his sleep backwords lol..when I get kids they won't go to school in america not in a kaziilion years :O even if it was private...But heyy I dont make choices in this relationship lol I kinda like not making choices? just Yes Master No Master BIG KISSY MASTER :)
master said if I score high on standard testing he will sing -TEN- onew songs -TEN- -TEN-
WOAH I WANT TO PICK OUT TEN ALREADY ^_^...
anyways Time to end blogging while master sleeps I am going to take a pratice exam :) I wont fail master..I will show him I can succeed and then enjoy my ten onew songs :) I have-one- shot at this testing.. lets just see how awesome I do..who knows maybe if i get like perfect score he will sing the WHOLE ONEW ALBUM!!!~ YAYYYY

Blahhzz WTF

today master just screamed at me =[
I told him I met this guy online
bassicly I enslave him and he gives me money ^_^
just like how master said I could do it
but this guy lives in china..he is a sucscfull CEO in china :o
and he has the diamond club account to prove it!
the diamond club just means your money has been verified :O
I just idely messaged him once and he happened to reply :D
he said its cool I like asian things and he has never tried being a slve and wants to try it~
we could get to know each other better and maybe in a few months he can fly me out to china on a private jet and he will let me stay in a suite I can bring a friend or two if i wish and we can try the bdsm things :D
cool right?
I told master..
and all he did was scream at me...
I felt like....I was a bad person....
just BLAH KITTY AWIFPJSFASK ASSPKFNA;N;AS FSAKMAFS;M KA;AM;KFM;ASMF
aghh....=/
I didnt know just messaging someone was so harmfull...
I followed the rules...no personal relationships just bdsm
but still I was screamed at =[
=[
its my first time really being screamed at by master
I feel sick..
I just told master i am going to eat
I shall order chowmein..
and sleep....sleep forever
ughh i hope i dont awake for a long time -_-
I waited to talk to master for a longgg time
but I didnt even get to tell master other things in my life..
he was just screaming at me..
and when he did give me the chance to talk about other things
I didnt want to tell him?
it just felt like he wouldnt really listen..
I know most times master doesnt listen but it just felt like he wouldnt care really
just blahhhh hes so mad at me
what do i do? ~_~
aghhh I need chowmeins...
aghh talking to master is so weird now
it was just ONE message not even exchanging anything else =/
Master asked what if he went to germany with a stranger?
I wanted to ask him whats the diffrence from germany and where he lives?
no matter what master will fuck someone thats not me
should I feel upset that he wants to go to germany?
should I feel like a bad person for messaging someone???

~1

I feel bad that my friend joppi has confused feelings about Master XD
she knows everything about our relationship except she doesnt know the bdsm part?
As of right now she thinks master is the perfect boyfriend for me <3
I describe our relationship more as a DATING rather then a slavery relationship..

"Oppa told me that he loves me forever!~ and will never ever ever let me go not in a thousand kazillion years :O because I stole his heart with my cuteness :D"
(OF COURSE master did not say this) and then she is like AHH!~~HE LOVES YOU <3 THATS CUTE~! Did I stretch the truth? no..Master did tel me he would never let me go but there was conditions to him never leaving me..
or something else would be like
"Oppa says, the name Katie is really special to him and years from now he wants to name something really special Katie like his first child or his first resturant or something :)"
Well...mmmm I am named katie and I am his first slave? Slave and reasturant isnt a far stretch I serve master just like reasturants serve food?
"Today Oppa said he wants our realationship to be high intensity! meaning he wants me to know that He loves me so much and he will do his best to make me happy in the future!~ even though we are online he wants to make sure we dont fail like others relationships and we are being real and legit 100% of the way"
Well..our relationship is a high intesnsity bdsm relationship and we are trying to be a Master slave realtionship not a fake master sub relationship..Legit and real

Although I love stretching the truth about what master says I enjoy stretching the truth about what I say to him lol
Situation: Me and Master are in a fight rawrrr

Kitty says: Oppa, there is 3billion people in china..If you don't treat me better I will move to china!~~
Oppa says: Sorry Kitty, don't move to china I love you!~ I will try my best not to hurt you anymore

Actual argument
Kitty says: Oppa, You always hurt me I am sick of it
Master says: Sorry Kitty, I will do my best to cut down on unintentional hurting you but you must realize that sometimes intentional hurting is required in this relationship

^_^ TBH I like my version of the argument better <3 so sappy

Bassicly I quote my favoriate asian dramaas :) and now master looks like the best boyfriend ever but Theirs aalso times where I dont stretch..if master says anything G rated that doesnt need stretching to make it more G-rated then I let joppi know the truth :) but how often is master G-Rated? Heres what I figure...Joppi is going to hate Master soon might as well make her love master just as much as I do? <3

wahhzz

yayy!~ diet is going great I look good :O
MASTERS BIRTHDAY IS IN TWO WEEKS
AHHHH~~~ FRANTIC DASH TO FIND OUT WHAT TO GIVE HIM
I finished mudkips ^_^
but I dont like mudkips..
so now I can A. REDO MUDKIPS B.DESTROY MUDKIPS OR C.SEND MUDKIPS
-_- I think I will go with B. it just looks meh...
I want master to get something and be like
YAYYYYYY MY KITTY LOVES ME!~~
But I dont know what to give Master :O
What if I get something too girly 0_0
what if i buy a tshirt and he hates it
rawrrrrrrrrrrrrr
I want master to be super happy with what he gets
Happy enough to go on facebook and be like.. Great Birthday today love my special gift :p
hahha jkjk master isnt so public about kitty
I Wish Master was more public in a secret way :D
Like this one time master put my text on facebook~~ ahhh so cute
copycat I couldve sued him for copywrite issues but since I am so NICE I let him get away with it this time ;)
Master said he does not know how to give me surprices
ahh how is master so slow
To me Master can make me so happy by the simplest of things
A picture of him makes me jump up and down ^_^ It's emberassing to say lol
and if by chance...I recieve a picture and I am in bed I giggle like a little girl who just heard that her crush likes her back LOL
The crazy part of this is I usually get pictures when I am FIREY MAD at master lol
tsk tsk tsk master cheats by making kitty feel better with a picture lol
Master asked me if I could go back in time and pick a OPPA for a Master would I?
I thought about it for a little bit
and then master asked me whats special about him
I thought for a long long long long time
nothing really is special about Master He is good at math,writes well, geeky, weird? idk nothing I really care about enough to mark as special and its a LONG stretch to call Master unique since unique I dont believe in...
But Master is special because he grew into a special soft place of my heart made just for him!~~
Yeah..I know sounds like a cop out answer...lOL but its true
If joppi hurt me a lot and then sent me a picture
I would defriend her on facebook
appologies are not made by pictures..I dont forget what happens because you sent me a picture -_- But master As soon as he sends me a picture its like he put a bandaid over my broken heart and kissed it with love <3 I just get that lovelly amazing Feeling and just think Ahh..I am not mad anymore ^_^ but thats just photos
When my phone rings and its master..AHHHHHH I HAVE A HART ATTACK~!
lol should I say hello super sexy? nono I will say hello super cool
nonno I will say hello like a slave! NONONONO I WILL SAY HELLO I LOVE YOU OPPA!!~~
haha but by the time I pick up..I get so confused on which hello that I just sound confused (-_-) fail the list of special things he does to me can go on for a long time and maybe one day I shall post all of them ha
but back to the point...Master or Oppa who is a Master...
I pick Master Oppa Master might be great! I can really see myself having lots of fun and not being hurt and enjoying myself!!!! but Unfortunatly There is only one place in my heart for someone like Master I dont think Oppa Master will be able to get into that place to get in..
1.You need to hurt me
2. to make me WANT this relationship
3. make me WANT to not give up

Master The first time he hurt me thats when he started cracking into a special place in my heart..He told me If I am not serious about bdsm we should end this I was so hurt I cried I cried and cried he said bdsm was a phase for me thats when I wanted to not give up (see haru haru)
The first time Master made me want to keep this relationship was when he described what love is, the special feeling of love he will have for his slave me~!
The first time he hurt me..Was less then a week of starting this relationship -_-
In fact its my -SECOND- blog post! I guess that shouldve been a hint that he would hurt me more often lol

I was in a BDSM relationship with a master 95% Oppa :o
When I called..He wouldnt say hello
He would say " I love you"
If we happened to talk about anything He will always squeeze I love you into it
" Today I was at the mall, I was looking for clothes and then I saw the perfect dress and I thought God I really love Katie I Know she will love this on me"
XD even if he was talking about facebook he would say I love you
Your my angel, Your so beautiful I want to spend my life with you!~~
cute things!~ copied from dramas that I pretended I never watched lol
and one day he proposed! A promise ring, it was beautiful my name was engraved into it and it was really nice..
after I aceepted though things got weird..
I wasnt ready for kids!!
and He was intrested in poly dating 3 or 4 wives of course im the most beautiful angel He has..He wants a Black angel, Spanish angel, White angel and a Asian angel..Sounds more like he wants to TASTE the rainbow -__-
and we broke off I kept the ring ^_^
I sold it lol beautiful ring I hope whoever gets that ring
Is happy and in love
but the feeling I have for Master and the feeling I had for him was diffrent..
Yea he could make me smile by saying I love you..But Master makes me squeel and fangirl when he says I love you :O Yea he looked good shirtless AWESOME CHOCOLATE ABS LIKE KPOP STARS but Master Shirtless looks like OMGDANFJDSAFDSNLKJFNLDSGSDKJG oops thats not a word :p thats because I cant describe how I feel
The best way to describe why I will pick Master everytime and continue to be in a painful unfair relationship is because
I am addicted to the way master makes me feel?
With Master all my emotions are like on crack ^_^ JUST CRAZILY HYPERLY OVERDONE
With Master I am 10x more HAPPY ^_^ EVERYDAYY
When Master hurts me though it hurts a bit more then others..
I take his advice and critism a lot harder then others for exsample I will NEVER use a comma without a space ever again lol
I also atleast attempt to look at what i type and see how can I make this have less words :D
clearly I dont do that on blogs..Blogs are me putting my heart on a page!
If Master fucks other girls I will be hurt, But..I wont show it ^_^
I will happily search for more girls..
I want to be a slave because I want to make one person happy,as happy as can be I can't die without knowing one person truley was so happy because of me :)this "happiness spreader" can be done in many ways..but why did I chose bdsm?
I love truth or dare
I loved dare the most~
And I found I was a good slave..
Never had complaints before
I really wanted a master with a weird fetish that is hard for people to do?
so I guess in terms of expirence I DONT have much
but in terms of expirence I have had my fair share
ranging from A baby..To a Doll that cant move,eat,drink etc.
Masters bimbo ideas falls in the middle
Maybe what if master doesnt need a bimbo to get it up
but he needs a nonphsyical element that his soul is attracted to?
how creepy do I sound?? lol
Like what if...his brain is looking for a girl that is not just pretty with boobies but also special unlike anyone else?
When I Concider the possiablity that maybe a bimbo might not make him attracted..I worry If I will be the special element is brain is searching for to keep him up :o?
I do have a solution to all Masters troubles!
Just one month will cure him for a LIFETIME 100% MONEYBACK GURANTEE :D
haah I hope we dont have to get to such extremes lol

Twistedz

I am so humiliated
I just want someone to hug me and tell me its ok..
I wish I had a boyfriend :/
I spent 2days of my life with webdesign things..
I thought I had skill!
I worked slow but it looked nice
But now when I finished the site it looked average
Did I really spend so much time
To make shit?
I spent so much time..skipped so many meals...
But I have nothing to show again..
I really wanted to proudly show master!
And master will smile and honnestly tell me its not garbage..
Master tells me a lot of the things I like or I write is garbage..
I don't know why I expected this to be diffrent
Its like my 4.0 gpa I achieved with all B's
Why am I so average :/
I prepared a huge surprise for master 2 days ago!
it took me a while but it was perfect!
So much retakes and retrys
My voice hurt so much from redoing..
Master said he would be home soon he said this at 10pm
I waited till 3:30am for master..
Worried, excited and anxious..
But at 3:30Am when I went to sleep I felt alone, confused and sad
BUT I was hopeful that master prob went to a strip club :) and it ends at 4:30am
The next day I found out master actually was home the whole time
But frogot about me
As soon as I heard I was pissed and sad and dissapointed
I worked so hard on this for him..
I just deleated everything I made -_-
If he can't remember kitty was waiting for him he shouldn't get the surprice
That surpice belongs to someone who actually cares
If I was a hot bimbo waiting for him at home he wouldn't have frogot!
If I was anyone...but kitty he would have rememberd
I told master its cool I understand etc.
And the pictures helped a lot
But, it will still take some time...
In the meantime I guess ill figure out what to do with my webdesign :/

Ne-Yo

Master asked kitty to pick a song that describes her love for him Master picked a bright fun song but then kitty picked a sad song with suicide at the end..even thou the end is sad it displayed kittys emotions..I nervously sent him the link it felt like I was asking someone out for the first time wondering if he will accept my feelings..Master did not accept my feelings he was like AUGHHHH WHY DO YOU SEND ME A SAD SONG and he said this is crap..and he just hated the song I felt rejected I felt like screaming and crying and hiding under my bed..Master tryed to explain but I couldnt read it..I read it and then didnt want to read so I just sumarized..It was too late I was rejected by my master for having strong emotions that scared him..I shouldnt have strong emotions I should stop..He doesnt even love me yet I can't even be introduced propperly yet I need to weaken my emotions..After the song master got sad because he thinks I am sad being with him and he has a problem with boobies..Master does have a problem with boobies but that's the only way he sees himself happy before I continue here is the song

Jo Gyu Mahn-I'll give you everything
Normal=lyrics
Bold=My emotions behind

I could never see why you would ever meet me
Thats why I cant open my eyes
If I open my eyes you might disapear, this might all be a dream
I'm so grateful you came to me
I am so lucky you came into my life
Were you lonely all this time
Were you alone waiting for someone to open up your hear
I can guess by your thin face
Freshmen year Master lost a lot of weight and was depressed
Cry when you feel like it
It's ok to cry you dont have to be strong in front of me
get rid of your pain with your tears
Cry untill all your pain is gone I don't mind
In my arms we should soothe each others pain
Together as we grow together we will soothe each other pains you don't have to do it alone anymore
I may not be good enough
Right now I am not good enough for Master,I can't proudly be displaced and our relationship wont be accepted
But I will give you the rest of my love
Right now even though I am not good enough I will give you all the love I have right now
Were you tired all this time?
Were you tired of finding someone you can open your hear to?
I may not be good enough but I will give you everything

I wanted a song with our past and future..Master talks about past and future a lot..this song talks a lot about how hard it has been to find someone a tired lonely road..Master says he lives in fear sometimes living in fear can be lonely trying so hard to help everyone and master couldn't open his heart up to a lot of people but kitty can see some of masters heart...a lyric that seems like it won't fit master is " your face looks thin" but it fits! Master was alone the first year in the usa and he lost a lot of weight hating the food here but the lyric that ties this whole song into why I picked this was " Right now I may not be good enought but I will give you the rest of my love" I feel this not good enough emotion a lot!
Wtf is master doing dating me..having me as his kitty????
1. I am not chinese
2.I am not beautiful like everyone else on cm..or on his fb
3. I don't have big boobies
4.Age issues causes emberassment to master
5.I am not at the same intellegance level..
I am below average and if master searched harder he can find people that fits all his criteria!
But he won't ever find a kitty like me..a kitty with plane emails who is always posotive(ish) loves asian culture! And more!~
I can't give him looks, beauty or his friends jealous of me..I can give him love :) All the love I can send!~~~~~~~~
When I get big boobies I can't wait for master to say I love you :D
Master said today..kitty I truely love you..does he love me without boobies
Master said without big FF boobies I am only worthy of a fuck or two and maybe one date
Even though I am worth that much to master sexually I will do my best tim improve so overtime I can be of more worth :)
I hope one day..master can look at me without thinking about boobies or boobies in the future..just look at me and my personality and see that I am not so bad and that he loved me a lot more then he thought..
When master worries about me and family situations It makes me feel like he cares more and more about me each passing day!~
So lame to think that way..