Sweet and sour pork

Theirs a quote by beethoven....
"Only the pure of heart can make good soup"
If master was a soup what would he be....
A.chicken chowmein soup!
I need more time to think on his soup -_- but I. Would like chicken chowmein soup yunnn

I have a list of turnoffs (doesn't every girl) master doesn't fit any of the turn offs except one I feel that he cares about what others thinks about him and I don't care what others think about me if I want to sing my fav korean songin public I will -_- if I want to dance in the rain sure why not? At my school everyone has mixed opinions about me and to br frank I don't give a fuck -_- why does it mater what other people think are they that important? @_@ I understand with being so young master doesn't like telling everyone about me but I've noticed other random things hs worried about. How people percieve is it really that important to him?

My friend joppi "expert on love" she thinks master isn't suited for me and warns me daily of the dangers o.o its a rocky zone I know @_@ she doesn't think ill fit in with his family I can't speak the lang yet..I can't cook chinese my knowlodge on te culture is quite average and everyone incluing master would reject me socially in the culture...yeaa maybe she's crazy but I hate hearing that everyyday theirs some truths to it I have a seriouus problem with secondguessing myself but for once in ever I don't want to second guess I don't want to give up to allow another girl to steal master -_- I need to workout more! I finished my high heel training I walk great in 6inch heels..but it hurts like hell after I'm done walking

I'm conssidering taking some massage therapy classes! If I start now I can get all the bs classes done and then next year 2012 I could be seriously taking the course for massages and what not..I. like the idea of alternative medicine like aroma therapy,music therapy etc etc. Master he suffers from backpains a lot I think he needs massage therapy! Maybe getting this therapy from a hot bimbo will make him get better faster!

It sucks because I want to do soo many things I want to learn chinese,cantonese be a paramedic learn massage therapy be a nail tech go to medical school and be a doctor @_@ I'm going to be dead broke if I don't cross something off my list
Why can't I just live off of ramen noodles and do everything? When I become a doctor I can do my patients nails,be a doctor in china or communicate with chinese patients :p super doctor? Actually I worry I won't be a good doctor I don't think I possess the personality traits needed I have the passion! So hopefully ill gain the personality traits I need soon!

Master is going to sanfran this summer I hate time zones. Hopefully he finds a job in sanfran I'm really applying for colleges all over north florida and one school sanfran XD

Yesterday I was really sad I was in the mall and I started to cry omg ~_~
Master called to cheer me up but he did a mediocore job
It was like the whole call I was like..kill me kill me kill me kill me @_@ well not the whole call but like a nice portion
But master always makes me laugh I'm happy he can make me laugh

Sometmes I love being with master hell most of the time I feel like that
But sometimes I hate being with master and feel like he's making me go insane
And then theirs those random times when I love and hate it (like today)
I love being with master and hate being with master (not because his personality or anything I just don't think. I'm. Contributing mentally to the relationship XD not mentally but socially not socially by SOULy ughhh too late to be writing a blog post omg )
And then those days I feel so confused and selfish..selfish because I refuse to give up and keep trying even if I always fail espicyl at cooking
Oh gosh cooking -_- one day I'm going to be a great cook and cook for yyi and alllll his friends I won't give up! :D
Ill never give up on chinese cooking or master no matter is master hates talking about the bestest gf in the world who never fails to wake him up or to send him away with a cute email and never fails to put a smiele on his face!and if. I struggle with cantonese I won't give up either :D giving up is not an option only success!

yiyi soup

Ahh...why does it feel *this* good to be in love :D? Hahah it feels like I'm on the best rollar coaster ever..a rollar coaster with ups and downs and twist and turns and lots of silicone boobies yea that's my coaster wanna take a ride? XD welll that's too bad cuz the coaster only has 2 seats one for kitty an one for master

Today in japanese class a girl I told about my bdsm life she asked me well why is your name kitty? Do you meow? Does he pet you? Are you being trained into a cat!!? @_@ and I laughed soo hard I think my master has petted me like once I think id perfer a kiss then a pet..but then again I love anything and everything from master actually the only reason wh y my name is kitty is because I like hello kitty so my master he wanted to be able say hello,kitty my master is so silly :D
lol

Sometimes whenever I date someone no matter who they are I wonder...how do I know this is the "one" especially relationships like master that could result in marriage it would be horriable to waste his time @_@ but anyways how would you know this person is your soul mate there's 1.3 billion people in china.. maybe your soulmate is hiding in china? Is it stupid to worry about you soul mate hiding in china @_@ me and master aren't soul mates honestly I think I already know master soulmate mmmm should I keep such classified info to myself? Even though me and master are not soul mates I like him super much :D our love storry is like the asian drama :D ok...I know life isn't like a drama...
Oo let's make a drama out of me and masters love story!


Ai Yoshida koogyoo kabushikigaisha
Is the tittle! Yes I named it after a zipper compant -_- zippers of LOVE

Today master showed me his friend picture yiyi I told master his friend is so so so so so so so so smart looking haha I know master thought I wanted to say cute lol he's cute but he's not like smoking hot like master if that makes any sense @_@

Master has cute friends I would not mind fucking his friends if he allowed but my worry with fucking his friends is..I'm pretty sure during sex I'm going to be screaming master lol his friends will be like- yeahh...I had sex with kitty.......yeaaaa...she started screaming master @_@ lol

Everything that master has taught me so far he taught my many maath equations and vocab words and chinese XD I cant believe I remember everything its weird...altho I must admit I always forget small details like his fav color (black) or other random things XD but the point is because I remember what he teaches me do you think ill be amazing in sex? Master teaches me how he likes it and ill alwayyys remember :p

I've been studying quite hard for standard testings I'm so happy and proud of myself :D 2hrs a day 7 days a week for a total of 14 hours of studying a week XD its gonna be hard to continue that pattern till october lol I'm working hard and so is master :D

YiYi

Lately I've been doing some deep thinking just a bit curious about well everything
And one thing that really botheredd me was that I'm so young and so far I have not yet participated in an activity that helps a greater cause and I helped that cause with all my heart actively happily working to be a part of something bigger then myself...so I was reading the news online and there is an organization called students help rebuild its a project with a huge emphesis on haiti but because of the recent japan issue they have some things you can do for japan! One of those things is making cranes each crane you make and send it the organization will donate two dollars so just making 5 cranes you have just raised 10usd for japan!! So far I raised 40usd for japan and I'm still making cranes!!~I hope to make 200 cranes and raise 400usd but I've got my friends involved also and they also wish to help japan maybe we wll have a total of 400 cranes raising 800usd? But deadline is quickly approaching....I need to find something that I'm really passionate about other then obstetric fistula and organ donation a lot of my friends are applying for volunteer things just so it would look nice on a paper is it wrong to look for something I want to do? Other then just do it because I have too? This society can be so twisted when I volunteer I want people to see my true passionate emotions about helping not just view me as someone who only needs it for school or a class or something...
Before I met master I never really thought deeply
I also find I can easily arrange my ideas for arguments I steal tips from master thanks master :D
I watch and read the news more without forcing myself but I started watching the news without noticing and started reading without noticing...and now I cant go a day without watching the news
But I gues the worst part of everything that chhanged since meeting master is I look at boobs too much :o I wonder if its real I wonder if master would like it etc. Ahhh too much boobies I need my own fake boobies!
Master has made such a weird impact on my life..the other day someone asked me what has my master done for me he never gives tasks he only gives out essays but now that I think on it my master has given me more then anyone else ever could :D
But now I feel bad because I never gave him anything except maybe a little brush up on his korean and chinese haha :D what does XXXX mean in chinese? And he will be like ughhh hahaha

wo ai ni my fucking ass

I'm mad to the point that I fear I might implode I'm mad to the extent that I fear I won't be able to make a complete sentence -_- and I can't believe I'm this mad at my master the person who I faithfuly submit to...
Well why are you mad...?
I had a medical competition last weekend I worked hard tried my best etc etc. And I anxiously waited for results when I foun out I did not win I was sad I told maser the only comforting words he told me was awww and booo...really? The only things you could say was awwe and boo...not even try to give me a hug or try to call or maybe atleast pretend you cared somewhat? I went out to hooters and idley stuffed my face with food not giving a fuck about dieting or whatever. In my head I wonder well what if he was busy or with his friends or any other circumstance even if that was the case he could have left a small message master he says he loves me I dont think so master makes me go crazy ~_~ I just want to be the best bimbo I just ant to be his...but how come my master can't even fufill his duty as a master? In my dreams..in my asian dramas its never like this why does it turn out like this? I thought me and master were supposed to last forever but why are cracks showing up in our relationship so quickly? I did all my assignments I tried to workout my boobs are getting bigger and I did everything he has asked without complaints or concers..I've always been here for master but how come my master can't even fuffil the small duties of being a master? The smallest thing a master should do and is supposed to do is to care for his slave physically emotionaly and mentally..bdsm ts a strong bond of love he's also my boyfriend the love should be burning hot but why did I feel so alone the time I wanted him the most?did I do something wrong to be alone when all I wanted was him? I keep thinking welll what if I did my assignment quicker or used better grammar or if I was blonde or if I was skinnier or if I was everything but me then maybe master wouldn't have left me alone these things keep circling in my head..... If it was him who had lost I would be there for him..I'm always there for master when he's hungry when he's tired when he boards plane when he exits planes when he needs to study when he needs to think "alone" but how come the first time I needed master I couldn't get him?am I too selfish to want master just once? I try hard to not be needy but just this once I wanted to be needy and lean on master...but it turns out hooters burgers and fries were more helpful then my master who loves me thanks hooters

Qilly

Is it illegal to steal someones heart?
I think it should be..
Master stole my heart...I saw master last night it felt like he was sparkaling...was I dreaming I ask myself...he looked perfect words can't describe it I always think master is cute but for some reason when I saw him lastt night...it was diffrent...I compared him to onew one of the highest compliments you might receive from me...but in fact he did not look like onew he looked better I fangirled soo much last night some people joke around and say fangirls drool...well maybe its not a joke I was thinking about masters cock and well..yea XD do I want his cock that much...?I did not get to skype with master long become he is pmsing but its ok my brain was quickly turning mush at the sight of him

All this week though peopple have been manipulating me they ask me how I am and then ask about my master and the conversation usually stops because the type of question regarding master kitty was not sure what he was doing.questions like how's your master..is he busy today did you get a session? When was the last session? Was it fun? Is he fun? When's the last time you talk to you master? Do you miss me?. O_o then after kitty couldn't reply they would instantly be like...your so cute and nice with nice pretty body don't be with him anymore he doesn't deserve you etc.etc. this continued like all week from about 3 diffrent people it was annoying I hate being mindfucked what gives people the right to mindfuck me? Althught I was being mindfucked I got a bit confused I guess I know who I can trust and who I can't trust..

I find that online I am more easy to be taken advantage of I'm not quite sure why..in real I am witty and quickly stand up for myself and don't care about what people think of me..people at my school think I'm quite weird I guess I'm weird but is being weird really that bad of a crime? I rather be myself anyways I don't want to listen to rap and pretend I love it..I'm just fine with my kpop and cpop but online I often find myself crying when people I care about and know make fun of me and manipulate me..I have many long term online friendships the longest being 5 years and the shortest long term being 1 year XD I have a lot of really weird friends...crossdressers and gang leaders haha well maybe they are not in a gang...who knows right?

Usually when I eat chow mein I feel a huge sense of yummyness yayyy chow mein! But my mom bought me a whole bag of chow mein but when I eat it I don't feel anything are my tastebuds betraying me? I used to be able to quickly eat one lb of chow mein now I can't do it :/

A medical competition is coming up this week..last time I won 3rd place lots and lots and lots of people competed and I placed 3rd I felt proud of myself but this week I am competing on the state level..I'm happy bc I get a break from school and I also packed alllllll my sexy clothing yayy since I'm bad at public speaking I was thinking fml I wonder if I can do it? I praticed hard so hopefully everything goes smoothly! Today we held a pratice run just to see how you line up compared to other people ~_~ I was soo nervous but actually I placed highly...not just highly but 1st fucking place beat that :p before pratice today I was nervous public speaking is a downfall for me sometimes....I waited for my turn to come...so nervous I was shaking so obviously had to listen to onew...but onew didn't cure my nerves so I started humming onews part..but it didn't help and then I decided to look at saved gifs nope didn't work then my last hope at feeling comfort I looked at a picture of onews jyaio face and his peace sign but it did not comfort but then I listened to wonderful tonight cover by this asian boy xD and I felt at peace...and I listened to taeyang I need a girl cover haha and I started laughing I remember master covering this song best fucking cover ever god I wish I had it recorded XD even if his korean sucks and he can't ever rap gdragons part I love it :D why is it only things related to master made me calm? Hopefully at competition I can use the same tactic to get first place again XD?

Ahh not really much bddsm to put into this blog today but didn't you get a fairshare of bdsm last week?

CABI

Yesterday was also the day I started my lifestyle change!
My current lifestyle now is fine nothing too bad or dangerous but I feel as if I'm forever wasting my time...
For exsample on allkpop.com they had an article about Jung woo and because I did not know who he was I googled him and watched many many many many videos by him XD but back to my lifestyle change the important points I plan on changing.....

~My excersise workout plan I want to include more running and by 11/12/11 I want to easily run a 5k race for charity a 5k race is 3 miles...I only want to run with master for my first race...maybe if we like it we can do the cityscramble race...its a race about 12miles but at each station you have to solve a mystery puzzle or math equation or something I volunteerd there before quite fun! And we will win for sure bc master is a math major and ill bring my calculator!


-Eating habits! Ok I want to eat better more salad less chowmein more water less coke etc etc etc.but I also want to learn to cook chinese food forget chinese food ill be so happy if I even learn to cook XD but the thing is...I only want to eat with chopsticks I want to eat with chopsticks until I become a pro like master...duude we could play chopstick games yayyy chopstick games!

-Slavery I want to do my assignments and tasks and orders and whatnot to the best of my ability and do it quickly! I don't want to keep my master waiting for too long he shouldn't even be waiting -_-

-Study...I want to spend atleast 1hr on clep prep daily and also one hour on other important testpreps I want to score high. And make master proud! I can do it fighting!~ haha

-Testing- I want to take atleast 5 clep exams by the end of the summer...

Back on the subjects of cooking...I want to cook...
Chinese food,thai food(ooo exotic),korean food!!! Espicially tofu because onew like tofu :D,itallian food and any other randomness I can think of XD deff gonna post some of my random random random cooking projects I'm debating wether I should learn to cook dim sum or learn to cook jajangmyeon yummy!~
Master likes soup but the truth is...I've never finished a whole bowl of soup before XD maybe I'm not ment to be a soup person..hahaha soup makes me soo full it feels like I might implode!
Next post would show my food projects list fo sure!

Oh on a side note maybe ill learn how to make towel cakes mm..... can you tell I'm hungry =o?

Taken

A taken in hand relationship is a relationship that is male led and the female partner submits to the male in everyday life situations or decisions. A simple exsample  of this everyday life situation would be if the couple is arguing the female would agree with the male side even if she knows her side is right.The female also gives complete submission to what the male perfers such as what clothing to wear,how to style her hair,what type of friends she should have and many other things.but unlike bdsm taken in hand focous more on vanilla aspects in a daily life and not just specificly in certain scenes,and  the women in the relationship usually do not identify themself as property or owned.Chains,collars and whips are not ued in a taken in hand relationship although it can be used.The main method of   discplines is  a spanking they use spankings as a way to punnish disobedience,arguing or as a way to end disputes.In this relationship what the male says goes and is the final word.t