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What kind of person are you?what kind of person do you want to be? it wasn't untill a few year ago did I relise what kind of person I want to be..

I wanna be like the air. The good-hearted person whose kindness overflows and people realize how important she was to them, once she is gone.
I wanna be that kind of person.

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But what is a good person? Is a good person someone who donates blood and donates money and does volunteer work? Can you even define the word "good"?
I'm not sure what good is defined as I just strive my best to be kind sometimes being kind is hard sometimes you will get tricked because you are so kind and many times you will end up regretting being kind..I had my first boyfriend when I was about 12 he was my "world" and I was in love or atleast I hoped I was in love but one day out of the blue he told me we should break up I cryed a lot wernt we in love I watched all the sad crappy love movies and sung all the breakup sons and skipped school but 3 months after we were apart he texted me a long sob story about him needing money quickly he needed 200usd by the following day or else something bad would happen he was vague and I wasn't sure if it was ok to give money to my EX but I worried he really needed it I emptied my bank account my svings and also a bit of personal money I got for birthdays and what not and gave it to him it totaled 200usd he never said thank you or promised me he would return but all day people wer e talking about me the stupid girl who lent her ex boyfriend 200usd it was worse them humiliating I wanted to die the whole school was talking about me and all the boy would do is laugh he never returned the money and rumors about me continued to float the school for a long while maybe 2 years the rumors might have stopped if the boy would have stopped bragging and boasting how he managed to fool his EX out of o much money and till this day I never got my money back from him...that's an exsample of a time I regretted being nice But theirs so many exsamples and stories for times where i am happy that i have such a kind heart

Kiss my A.S.S

its NOT what you think Actually In math terms it says...Kiss my angle side side get a clue'
Since we are talking about math I have a few things I wish to discuss..

Two like signs are posotive
thats what master said does that mean
Kitty+Master=A posotive?

Or we could put our relationship in terms of chemistry!
Me and master are bound together by a shared intrest(bdsm) which creates a covalent bond :D :D :D

Red card

There are many many many posts that I have written but never posted some of them contain things I wanted to say but was scared to express and some of them are just crap blog posts..Now I will be posting all my blog posts that i have but have not posted..this is the least I could do for not speaking to master for such a long while...

Rain

I always blog when I am happy or excited but I wonder if it is really ok if I blog now..

I'm not like other girls I think that's where master made his first mistake..
I feel sad in the end I never really was any usse to master I never did his picture project and I'm scared to post my five things changing about myself task and I wasn't even able to masturbate on cam when he wanted to see me
I fail
I always tell master Your kitty will always wait here forever
But what's the use of a kitty like me?
I just feel useless and like I'm getting in the way such as interupting masters family time and his studying time
Is it really ok to have a useless kitty wait for him?
Master wanted me to email him pics of me playing with myself
I emailed master 5 pictures and after they had sent sucessfully I deleated all the pictures but master only was able to see one picture just imagining masters sad and dissipointed face makes me sad :( I failed him I wanted to show masters picture as a welcome to thai thing...after that incident I did not respond back to masters email I had no plans to talk to him to the 11th when he comes back even if I miss him so much I just wanted him to have a good time in thai a time where he could have a blast emailing him might have gotten in the way but he emailed me saying he was worried about me and wanted me to email me asap I wonder why he was worried...since he was worried I sent him a short short email

I made a new friend I found him on collarme he is chinese and can't speak english well sometimes it a bit annoying he told me that my master is really lucky to have found a girl like me...is it luck?

O bvioAhh!~
Yea I kinda stole ~ from master but its so cute couldn't help but steal
I've been singing alll day!~ nothing else better to do other then study for exam but singing is wayyy more funner heheh so I learned a new song today its called the carrot song its korean! Ah!~ on a cute level of 1 to 10 I rate it a 10! You know I hate when people fuck up scales and put 1 as the highest and 10 as lowest -_- really..ugh people can be so difficult sometimes!
Carrot!
Do you miss me?
Do you think about me?
I love you you love me
Obvious obvious obvious

Even though at times you feel sad
Even though at times you feel lonely
Always think of me who will be by your side

Ahh I'm tired of writing translations :p but you get the cute drift!
But whhyy learn one cute song when you can learn -two-
So I learrned thee I love you song with the tune of small world
I love you
I love you so much
I love you so much
I love you.com
I love you so much
Haha anyways not saying love annymore! Mastersaid not to leave sublimil hints..so I shall say it directly!
I love you masterr!~
Haha enough about love and songs

Time to update on my exams!~
Actually I only took like oneishh..haha

Japanese speaking
11/10
Japanese writing
12/10
Japanese multiple choice
???

I'm feeling pretty confident I happen to sucesfully score higher then everyone in my class and also some other classes :o omggggg maybe I'm draming did I realllyy beat the anime obssesed creeps who live breath eat japan culture??? Hahahaha victory! The sleeping girl who can hardly translate her assignments can speak and write japanese!
*giggles*

Trainz

This break has ended it went by so fast! Master was always online and I got to skype a lot I. Got to know master as a person and as a master I really enjoyed the expirence :) today I watched a movie with master a movie called internal affairs I would love to explain the plot but a bit. Complicated mm..good cantonese movie! Master likes action moviees but I like love movies! I asked master if I ever got tired of walking in heels if he would exchange with me and he said what do you think :o I think master will exhcnage! Because he's a good person like what if I twisted my angle then he would have to siwtch or piggy back ride me but I think id perffer a piggy back ride

Before I met master.I wanted a body like this!
- a body with no imperfections or scars or stretch marks tattos or anything like that!
- big boobs..
-botox under arms so ill never sweat agin eww..sweatingg!
-jell implated in my heel so I can wear high heels for extended amt of time
-significant amt of weight loss
-reguallry lazar treatment my legs

Now I'm with master and he wants all the things I wanted but now I'm fufiling someones fantasy :o wow what a deal fufill someones fantasy while stll accomplishing everything I wanted to do! Me and master are a great fit together don't ya think?

blondie

If you read haru haru you would have known that I have accepted in my heart that master could have -A- girlfriend untill we can meet and live togetheer and whatnots!but it wasn't till today that master told me that he wanted MULTIPLE girls all during our relationship even if we get married and grow old..black girls,spanish girls,asian girls,girls with big boobs,girls with small boobs,girls with big eyes,girls with small eyes,hairy girls,shaven girls etc etc. Master wants to play with his fantasy and try out multiple girls! After he said that I couldn't help but feel a bit sad/disgusted..master wants to have one girl which takes care of him and knows him and is esentially his ideal girl but what's with these other random random girls? What's the point of an ideal girl if you want to have multiple diffrent girls?? A bit contradicting his ideal girl will actually esentially be his 2nd option when he gets bored of these random girls mm..if master has told me this earlier I would have kept a distance from him not a far distance but deff wouldn't let my heart get tooo excited with him its esentially setting your heart up for heartbreak! How cruel is it that you've changed you whole self to please a guy and he just goes and fucks other girls? Master says he wants someone with a charitable good heart but I wonder how good this is? After master said his whole speech about wanting multiple girls suddenly I wasn't so excited to reply back to his messages :/ but what shall I do? Master wants/needs other girlfriends to fully complete his fantasys?master said he wouldn't get a girl because it will hurt me but..not letting him get multiple girls will hurt him mmmm bearlier this week I felt like I had stepped two steps forward with master being his kitty but why do I feel like I stepped 3 steps back?

Master set some resolutions for me this year quite impossable...I worry what the rest of the list looks like

I feel like when I'm on break I get LESS sleep then when I'm at school -_-
Master sent me pictures of hello kitty and daniel he saw them at the malll I would love to post it but some people are in the picture including a cute smalll child! So I won't if I ever feel like photoshoping it though I will deff post it on the blog! Master is really nice taking pictures I really don't expect pictures of anything master does I'm happy just knowing what he ate for dinner and what he did rofl but kinda more intrested in dinner! I learned a lot about chinese food

I've created a super asian plan!
Any really big eloborate plan I call a super asian plan because I notice some asians are extra smart rofl anywayss
Master wants me to study mandarain and cantonese! So what I will do is I will take manadarain classes and then self study cantonese once I get the tones right I should be ok? I self studied korean and japanese and my korean sounds normalish! But like in japanese as long as you know how to pronounce the letters you can say anything exsample:
Watashi wa kawaii desu! If you knew how to say the letters correctly you would be able to say this sentnece really nice but you might not know what it means..this sentence means I am cute!

Actually tonight I'm not really inspired to blog much :o