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Sacrifices
I blog about sacrifices so much that it kinda feels like i am repeating myself
but master has requested that I blog about sacrifices so here i am :D
I like pleasing master and making master make choices for me
I am generally a strong willed kinda girl so its kinda weird?
having master chose my friends and how long i will talk to them
but whenever I do obey master a part of my heart gets a little warm and fuzzy?
like yayy master wants ME to sacrifice something for him because he loves me
I take the sacrifices that I have to expirence as love
because master loves me he wants me to sacrifice something for him
its a weird way to express love but my master is a weird kinda guy
some girls know that they are loved by their boyfriend or master when he says I love you
but i Feel loved when my master demands me to sacrifice something?
but then you come to the question..are you willing to sacrifice ANYTHING for this guy?
sometimes I ask myself this many many many times am i REALLY willing to sacrifice anything for this master?
and i think about it shortly and I think if it will make my master happy shouldnt it be my job to do what makes him happy?
I personally feel like I do an average job at making Master happy I could improve in certain aspects.
but I am just starting out and I have plenty of time to be what master desires and to make my master happy
not all sacrifices are as easy
but all sacrifices make my master happy
since it will make him happy I am entitled to do it
I already sacrificed so much for my master
a small hint of what is to come in our future many more sacrifices
talking to master many times I feel like a child
easily able to adapt to whatever master likes
and as soon as master hates it I begin to hate things also
a little child with a soft brain to mold :D
and a bigger heart to love and give to people
to master I am prob a child..
a young girl who loves asian things and loves onew
if master told me to stop listening to onew would I?

You!~

IToday I am in love
Today I can't help but smile..
It feels like my heart has stopped!~
I just imagine master and giggle and bite my lips with a big smile :D
I giggle and smile so much I swear I think I might lose my breath!~
My master..is the best!~~
I want to love master forever!~ untill I am old and I fall down a little..xD
But its ok by the time I am that old master will be super old also!~ old and fragile together?
Years from now will master be too old to give me a nice spanking?
I want to give my everything to master for ever..
Happily giving myself to master..happily being masters happily giving master everything!~
Last night or maybe around 3am? I was looking at the stars or maybe the planes? And imagined how great it would be to give my everything to master..I hope I can give it to him
Ahh!~today I feel such happiness...
When I am kitty..I feel so happy...I hope I can be kitty forever!~~
Master wants me to get to know nicole..my "other" personality
But honnestly I don't want to explore..deep dark things lies in nicole
I just want to happily give up things for my master!~
I won't have any possesions how can I be happy?
And I might be whored out...
But I still imagine my life quite happy
Yesterday I cummed a lot..
I cummed to something on imagefap
I cummed to pictures of girls my master likes..
Yesterday hawaii asked me a question..
Would you rather love someone far away who craves to see you or love someone close by who doesn't care about seeing you?
Just a random question..to pondder on I wonder which master will pick I hope he choses the far away one because I crave to see him...
If you read this post and then my last post do you feel diffrent moods?
I have so much questions to ask myself
So much questions to ask master
But I will take it slow :D
Slowly exposing myself for master...

butterfly

This week i got asked to be someones girlfriend 3 times!
Yaaay! I feel like a blossoming flower...
Slowly getting prettier and prettier to the those aroun me :D
Unfortunatly I had to decline all offers to date these guys because I am taken by master
Well we are taken but not taken..
In most technical terms I'm free to date because me and master are not really dating..xD but in reality me and master have a boyfriend girlfriend relationship since I started calling him oppa :D
Yes oppa!~ No oppa!~~ :( it feels like I'm saying Yes boyfriend No boyfriend XD
One of the guys who asked me out said its impossiable that I'm dating master since its not on facebook lol
Facebook makes a relationship legit..xd
Me and master are so complex
Master does not want me to worry about a tittle but it becomes hard when I'm being pressured to accept tittles from womeone else xD lol
If facebook makes relationship legit are me and master not legit?
I won't be on masters facebook for many years..does that make me less of his kitty? I don't understand facebook world
Its so complicated...
I'm happy guys like me but sad that they took so long to discover I am beautiful :D
Maybe master was the first to discover the early bird gets the worm!~?

Wicked

Yayy finals is over and I am just chillazing I should be studying for my standard testing but I am not quite sure how long I should study for...I have about 5 HUGE textbooks to study out of and I do hope to complete all 5 textbooks by the end of summer xD its a little bit like mm...is it possiable too study too much? But I Reallly want to be prepared and not expirence many surprices on the test Master said he willl not accept any low scores my scores have to be in the top 10% which is a pretty high goal for me since I am just an average student getting average grades..
but master would not have set high goals for me if he knew I was not able to do it :)

I recently started communicating again with the boy from hawaii I originally thought that he would hate me and our conversation would be really weird and I was rightish Our converrsation was quite awkward but he did not hate me and wanted to continue a friendship based relationship with me! I am so excited yayy! I like making friends on CM but a part of me feels like master is scared of the people on cm almost like he can not trust his ability as a master..I am not quite sure why I feel that way whenever I mention my friends to Master..Master has restricted my talking time to hawaii to 9hrs talking+typing thinking about it seemed a bit cruel to restrict typing+talking time mostly because I am always always always online XD LOL but 9hrs is about the time I talk to master..maybe a little less or a little more depending on the week i think master chose the ammount of hrs I can talk to hawaii based on the ammount of time I avergly talk to Master because he does not want someone to talk to me longeer then him in fear of it could create emotional bonds? Maybe my theory is completly wrong
but it does not really matter because whatever master wants I quickly listen and do what is requested!~~

Master says he thinks he is ready to love someone
he thinks he is ready to love kitty
for christmas Oppa told me he loved me :D (Thanks santa!~)
And then for my birthday ^_^ Oppa told me is ready to start loving me!~
ahh Oppa is the best always giving me what I truly want Most
I hope master can love me
sometimes late at night I worry that I wont be able to receive masters love
because I am not like every girl Master has dated..
yea..I guess I am kinda like his X from high school..
but idk..Maybe oppas mom wont like me because I cant dance
and then Oppas brother wont like me because I cant understand his programming knowlodge because my knowlodge is outdated and old..
and masters dad +Grandma wont like me because I am not asian XD
and after i am done worrying about allll this!~ I think to myself
I love oppa+ Oppa loves me + I am a cute little kitty!~ = Everyone is forced to love kitty :D
I guess my math skills need a bit of work...
I Missed oppa last night so I sent him a cute little text I wondered if Oppa smiled knowing someone misseed him
Everyday Master gets hotter and hotter..I wish I was getting prettier everyday
all my cm friends think I am pretty but to master I am average sometimes its a bit discouraging being average to nmaster but like amazingly beautiful to everyone else!~
I got a job offer to be a erotic model..Selling my body for money
Money that I really really really need because my parents are dick heads
Master says not to sell my pictures
a couple pictures or two wont hurt anyone
It seems safe,the money is good and it could be fun?
Master gets the last say in whatever I do
it feels weird putting all my eggs in masters basket!~
But I like it..I like it a lot trusting Master with all mny heartw

!~

I wonder if Master always believed in happiness..
I wonder if master thinks the world is mostly black and white..
so much questions I want to ask Master
I ask master questions all day long but still I dont know enough stil I have more questions.. stupid questions,weird questions,hypothetical questions and who can forget kidnapping questions! I think as long as I am with master maybe my questions will never stop...
Master is thinking heavily about being a tranny at this point I guess I SHOULD be crying and wondering why my master wants to be a tranny..But I personally dont care what master is girl or boy penis or pussy xD it really does not matter
I am 100% legit does having a pussy make him a bad person?
Does dressing like a girl make him weird???
Master just wants to be happy whats wrong with seeking happiness..
I just want master to be happy with me happily living even if we are not the richest couple we MUST be the happiest couple :) the happiest master and the happiest slave
We must be happy because we found our perfect match the master that loves his slave no matter what happens and the slave that loves her master to the point she goes crazy!~~ ahaha
I wonder if master was scared asking how I felt about trannys
maybe Master was not scared because he knew in his heart that I would love him no matter what
I am jealous of master how did he pick such a good slave whats his trick?
In my heart...
Master is not the hottest guy I know..
he doesnt have super powers like onew!~
but in my heart, master is my Oppa
and my Oppa has the best spot in my heart
I will serve my Master,my Oppa for a long time
Giving happiness to his life
Bringing him more smilies
And bigger boobies for his joy and ammusment
I love my Master

inspiration

Kitty is inspired by Love,more specificly my love for master, love makes me want to give up more limits,volunteer more,wear sexier clothes andd give up everything I own to Master.Master is a special boy and my relationship with him started with one sided love or maybe you can call it one sided obsession?.Basing my relationship on love, I was able to see masters gentle sides,masters scary sides and many more.Soon I felt myself wanting or maybe craving to see master smile or hear master laugh and before I knew it I was sucked into this bdsm relationship.A relationship where I wanted to go through all ends to ensure Master is always happy,even if it ment having some pain or losing a friend or two.I wanted to do it for my master happiness because he deserves happiness and I want to play a special role in it.Master says I am not allowed to have any wants but all I want is Masters happiness not any extreme bdsm fantasy or requests.Even if I was not in a bdsm relationship and we met at starbucks or at the librabry I think I would still be going out of my way to make him happy.a week ago I posted a new updated list not that a list matters because I would be willing to do everything on the list but it made me happy seeing the changes and sacrifices I was willing to go through for master.Just reflecing on the hardships I had to overcome to be with master makes me feel so happy.Master has a special kitty that loves him beyond words a special kitty that wants to offer her special love to Master.

Hawaii

Yesterday I asked master to give me pain as much as he could until I could not handle it anymore and break it takes a lot to make me cry so I did not cry but I felt my heart break over and over and over again..just what I wanted and when I felt like I could not have my heart broken anymore I still continued until I felt like I could not handle it...it hurt...I was so jealous and so hurt...but it felt good to feel hurt to compensate for the hearts I have broken I think master was being easy on me but I wish he did not..I never went easy on my friends I met on cm.I have to stop talking to hawaii he does not like thhe idea of me having owned by master on my profile and when I signed up to be masters slave I said that would be one of the things I did a part of me just wants to delete my profile and continue me and hawaiis friendship I like being his friend I was so lonely late at night when master was always with his friends..hawaii took the lonlieness out of my life he actually liked talking to me..nobody likes talking to me...I think when I put owned by master back on my profile I will cry a lot I will cry so much tears because I will be alone again...master says I will find more friends but I want this friend I like this friend..being with master hurts so much...how many people did I have to hurt to get closer to master?how many times have I found someone to take away the lonliness...in the end all of this will be worth it but what if I dont make it to the end? Does that mean all the hearts I have broken I have broken in vain?